Cant seem to catch a break..

WARNING this is more of a vent post: Mike cant work at Ford cause he has too many speeding tickets. We were counting on this job, it was suppose to get use caught up on bills and move out of my parents house. We werent suppose to live with them this long, we are being such a burden to them which is why we were so excited for this job. I know we have it pretty good compared to some people, but it sill feels like we cant catch a break. Whenever some thing good happens something bad has to ruin it, If I didnt have Brendon I would be an emotional wreck. I see all of my friends that their hubbys have amazing jobs and are buying and living in houses. And I think why cant that be us? I knew what I was getting myself into when I married my amazing hubby. And I would change it for the world. But I didnt think that we would be here where we are right now. Have an amazing son and living with my parents. Trying so hard to not lose hope and let it get to me. But I cant help but feel like this when it happens ALL THE TIME to us. :( Sorry for the vent but I really needed to get it off my chest.

Say what?

My little man is already four weeks! He is getting so big, on Wednesday he weighed 8lbs and 14oz. Almost 9lbs! So far I have lost about 25lbs, still have some more to lose and then MAJOR toning needs to be done. But I am pretty shocked on how much I have lost so far. I go on daily walks so I think that helps a little bit. I have my doctors appointment in two weeks and I am very anxious. We will finally be able to discuss with the doctor my options about going back on my meds or if there is other options that we can do. I will probably go back on my original meds because I actually felt like a normal human being rather then a psyco lady who yells at everyone. haha

Mike has not started San Tan Ford yet. There was some problems with his DL and it took about a week to get it fixed. Thankfully it is fixed and we are just waiting to hear back from them on whether it fixed the problem or not. We are hoping that it does cause this is the first break that we have gotten in a while. And we need this job more then anything right now. We are already over our heads in bills and now that Brendon is here we have more. With all of his jaundice testing... well that REALLY killed us. And I am afraid to look at the hospital bill (which we havent gotten yet).

May first is going to be Brendons blessing. We have not talked to the bishop about it yet (we will tomorrow, which will be the first time in a very long going to church, and if you know me really well you know why and my views on the church). We arent sure if he will let us do an actual blessing at the church building or not. Depends on what kind of bishop he is, I am nervous to find out. If he decides to be lame and not let us we will just do a fathers blessing somewhere without the church/bishop. It will be just as wonderful, cause for me this is really about Brendon and Mike. My boys having a bonding experience. Mikes family will be coming down for it, I am WAY excited to see my brother and sister in law. Mike and I are pretty close to them and its been almost a whole year since we have seen them.

Two weeks!

As of yesterday Brendon is two weeks old! I cant believe it myself! He is getting so big already, growing longer and longer each day. He is starting to get some fat on his cheeks and a little bit on his tummy.

He is staying awake longer and LOVES to look around. He actually screams and gets very angry if you block his view. He is starting to smile more, however he still cannot control it yet. Also he is starting to learn to make different sounds. For example, he is grunting alot more, he even growls at me sometimes. He also has his high pitched screams when he is just as happy as can be. I must say its pretty cute even at five in the morning. He recently has been making hissing sounds, like a cat. I am getting alot better at knowing what he needs just by the look on his face and the kind of grunts that he makes.

Mike and I had our first date night last night since Brendon. I was a little nervous leaving him with my parents since it was the first time ever leaving home without him. The whole night I felt like something was missing. I think I checked my phone about every half hour to see if my parents tried to call me. haha So what if I am over protective, its my first child. My little man.

Mike got a job at San Tan Ford here in Gilbert Az. He will still be working at Pep Boys full time so that Brendon and I can have health insurance. So I will hardly see him cause he will be working two full time jobs. But you got to do what you got to do right? It will help us move out, get our own place, pay off some bills, and hopefully get another car so we can be a two car family again. Its going to be really hard not ever getting to see him again, I am just hoping that he will make enough at San Tan Ford to support me and Brendon.